Friends and Fallbacks (from another's point of view)

“Fallback”, mentioned by a friend of mine the other day while we were having coffee at the mall. She said she was tired of her boring and unhealthy relationship with her boyfriend. She said she wanted someone who would be there at times when they fight about a misunderstanding or at times when he’s not available, not there. She said she just wanted someone. Someone to fill the void she felt. She needed a fallback. And no sir, I didn’t fail to recognize those lines. It was so familiar, so “me” back then. And again, us girls, we’re left to mend each others broken hearts. Our sex and the city scenes, our tremendously dramatic sessions about life, and our love for fun despite our downfalls.

Having a fallback is not that convenient as it seem. There are circumstances to prove this. I felt I had a fallback once; I picked him out of the rest. He was there, ready to lend his shoulders whenever my man doesn’t seem fit and too in love to give me his. Ready to provide me with lies I needed to cope up with everything I had. Of course, he never fails to kill me with his charm and demeanor. Until I started to fall -I was at the edge of falling completely in love with him when I realized a few things that made me think twice.

I analyzed what “we” we’re, what we had. I found a connection but I never found a trace of commitment. Yes, he’s the perfect fallback but never the perfect man (boyfriend). It was so obvious; I just didn’t want to see it. While he’s giving me the “sweetest” side of him, he was busy giving the rest to somebody else. He’s never the type to settle with. Because of that, I restricted myself to him by not giving him what he wants – I didn’t fall. Until he got tired, I saw him without his knight in shining armor and I saw that he wasn’t good enough, not even for a fallback.

It ended swiftly and of course, it did leave me some heartaches and regret but I’m glad everything’s back to normal. It was never my intention to split paths with my beloved; I just got tired of everything. I learned my lesson. I would never do that again. I love him. It’s time to pay him back.

Now, whenever I hear the word fallback, I can’t help but remember. I used to call him “sugar” but I guess that’s all I’ll ever know about him. Goodbye sugar.Thank you for gracing my life even for just a fleeting moment. Someday you will be the worst fallback, instead, you will be the perfect man for somebody. I look forward to that day. Good luck. Kudos to you and our friendship!